Conversation with a loved oneIt's a welling in my heart that I don't know how to deal with. A mixture of pain, love and fear. Fear that I might lose you through an act of thoughtlessness on my part. Sorrow mixed with this unquenchable fear. I want to cry for want of relief. A release from these emotions. I want to hold you, a ward against my fear. I want to feel your mouth against mine, telling me that you won't leave me. It's a fear of rejection and I don't want to ever feel it again. I kiss you and all I feel is love for you. A sense of oneness that can't be faked. Or explained. This is one of those nights that is all about tenderness. Softness. I need to be held tonight.
Then I'll hold you. You just need to say something.
I just feel like a little boy who needs to be told that the monster under the bed isn't there anymore. That I'll be safe.
You are safe. I promise you're safe.
When I'm with you, I do feel safe. I feel home. You just smile at me and I feel so safe. I feel so...alone here. When I'm not with you,